A friend gave me some puritan prayers this week and they are fantastic. This is one of them that I have been leaning on.
Thou art the blessed God, happy in Thyself, source of happiness in Thy creatures,
my maker, benefactor, proprietor, upholder. Thou hast produced and sustained me,
supported and indulged me, saved and kept me; Thou art in every situation able to meet
my needs and miseries. May I live by Thee, live for Thee, never be satisfied with my Christian progress but as I resemble Christ; and may conformity to His principles, temper, and conduct grow hourly in my life. Let Thy unexampled love constrain me into holy obedience, and render
my duty my delight. If others deem my faith folly, my meekness infirmity, my zeal madness, my hope delusion, my actions hypocrisy, may I rejoice to suffer for Thy name. Keep me walking steadfastly towards the country of everlasting delights, that paradise-land which is my true inheritance. Support me by the strength of heaven that I may never turn back, or desire false pleasures that will disappear into nothing. As I pursue my heavenly journey by Thy grace let me be known as a man with no aim but that of a burning desire for Thee, and the good and salvation of my fellow men.
After a few weeks of Fundraising, I feel like God has already started to teach me so much. He has revealed both newfound confidence and insecurities and has released an array of emotion. Mostly though, I have learned so much about how important it is to PRAY during this season in my life. I will attest that spending time talking to God and focusing on WHY I am doing what I am doing, is vital to success in fundraising.
I'm so stinking excited about continuing forward, for however long (yikes!) God wants me to be on this adventure and of course I'm excited that every day fundraising gets me one day closer to living in Hoddesdon- my love and desire to be in England grows stronger all the time.
Please pray that these first months of raising support are filled with people around me, as many people tend to feel lonely during it. Also, pray that I keep focused on my vision, even when contacts are running short and things seem discouraging. God is so good and I feel so incredibly privileged that He has such a fantastic future ahead for me.